I haven't really talked about my writing in a while, but there's a reason for that. And a good one, too.
Ever since I finished TANGO, I've been trying to come up with another project to work on. I've started at least five, but none of them have really panned out. THE AGE THAT WAS (the sequel to TANGO) wasn't going anywhere, SCARRED petered out pretty quickly, and DON'T MAKE A SCENE is still, essentially, a cliche high school novel. OBSESSION has potential, but I'm suffering some writer's block and am not sure how to fill in the middle section of the story. And then I wrote the first chapter of SILENCE, outlined the entire thing, then abandoned it.
All of this back-and-forth business was driving me nuts, so I just stopped writing. I decided I needed a plan. A real one, not a 'maybe if this works out, I'll go with it' kind of plan. Easier said than done, sure, but it was better than waisting my time writing something that was going nowhere.
While I've been not writing, I came to an important realization. It all goes back to something Naomi said to me over the summer. Basically, it boiled down to the fact that I should be querying the book I want to see on shelves. Sometimes it's difficult to keep that in mind because part of me just really wants an agent. I want to join my friends who've got agents, who are on subs, or have book deals. But the logical side of me knows that I need to have a new project to query. TANGO got bites, but it always seemed to boil down to the fact that it would be a hard sell. I had a few agents ask to see my next project, which is why I've been trying to write it.
Which is really what led me to the following realization: I write dystopian. It's just the way I am. I live for all that post-apocolyptic, futuristic sci-fi stuff. I wrote TANGO for a reason. I read dystopian for a reason. There's a reason SILENCE wouldn't leave me alone. I outlined it months ago, and every time I open gdocs, it glares at me, waiting for me to go back to it. I considered rewriting TANGO for the YA market, but after countless hours of trying to figure out how to change the story, I couldn't do it. TANGO was meant to be an adult book, so if I have to shelve it for a while, I will.
In the meantime, I'm going to consult with a friend of mine and see what she says, since she works in the business. Hopefully I'll have some idea of what I'm doing soon. Having writing ADD sucks sometimes.